To make people feel better about the role of womanhood, it has been taught (time and time again) that motherhood is equal to that of the priesthood.
No. It. Is. Not.
Motherhood requires physical labor, it requires sacrifice of blood, and water to bring that baby into the world. For those who become mothers through adoption, they go through emotional pains, so in away maybe motherhood by adoption is akin to the priesthood, which is mostly emotional toil, rather then actual physical toil.
But what about the man having to be there at church all day? Doesn't that take a physical toil? And Elders, they have to walk all day, and they get treated badly too? What about Joseph Smith? He had physical pain because of what he did?
Yes, but quite honestly the only priesthood ordinance that motherhood is ever equal too is the atonement. Well let me rephrase that, Birth and the Atonement are equal. One is not just a symbol of the other, I believe they are absolutely intertwined, and always will be, you can not have one without the other. No, it doesn't say that in our scriptures, not exactly, but looking at the two, and studying it, and praying about it. I unequivocally get the answer that Birth and the Atonement are one. That what Christ did isn't any more important then what Mothers do at birth, and what Mothers do at birth isn't any more important then what Christ did.
Remember too, that all these things are titles, Christ is a title, Mother is a title, Priest is a title. These are all titles, explaining certain responsibilities.
But what of Priestess? So far the only thing that I can gather a priestess does, is 1 ordinance in the Temple. That is the washing and anointing and blessing of other women. Then after that she sits in a chair, while the man is center stage. Yes, yes, all people in the Temple receive the same signs and tokens, but only through the male. And everything is geared toward an idea that it is always going to be through the male here and the hereafter. That there is no end to Patriarchy. That Patriarchy and Priesthood are one and the same. And I go "UG!"
And I have been thinking about this connection between Priesthood and Motherhood, then if there is a connection between Priesthood and Motherhood, one must then argue, that there is a connection not yet realized between Priestesshood and Fatherhood.
So with the way it is now, it may seem that Fatherhood takes a back seat to Priesthood. Except I don't see God calling himself the Almighty Priest. I see him calling himself Heavenly Father. So then it is the role of Father that is above priest, and that he could care less about being called a priest then being called a father. But in our mortal little world, we put fatherhood second to priesthood, and priestesshood second to motherhood.
I don't think it should be this way. So I get to thinking about what exactly is it about these four "roles" that have us all confused. And I think of the Testimony of Adam and Eve in a new way.
Adam stated I, he unequivocally was talking about himself, and finally taking responsibility for his transgression. I know exactly what President Hinckely thought of that, but I disagree. I will not use scriptures to put one person above the other in any way. That is not what the scriptures are about.
Think about it, most men talk in I. "I did this, I did that." It is always about themselves.
So the thought came to me late last night, the preisthood isn't supposed to be about "I", its supposed to be about we. I think the priesthood is supposed to teach men to think with a wholistic view, one they don't really ever have, in a patriarchal world. It is supposed to correct the presumption it is I.
Why God speaks in I, instead of We, I am still trying to figure it out. Maybe in that instance though it isn't about his presiding role, in fact that probably isn't even in consideration (not because its a given, because I just don't think God thinks that way). I think it was because he was trying to explain his atonement, which he did do. He was trying to explain what he is trying to do among men. It makes perfect sense to speak in I. Even if the Godhead acts as a "We".
Now what of the unknown priestesshood? Why is it so unknown? I don't think its unknown. I think God made perfectly clear that it is there, in the Temple. We just have been confused by it. To me I think now, and this thought came to me late last night, that the priestesshood is supposed to be the "I". It is supposed to teach women, that they can do somethings in the I, because women both culturally and natural view it as we. Since its through women, that the entire human culture comes through, the Priestesshood, is supposed to be there for each and every woman, to come to understand her individuality. Her power isn't solely centered around "We", she has individuality, individual strength. And I now think that the priestesshood is there to teach that.
If we all look through the lense that everything is patriarchal, it is always going to put women in a position of inferiority, and secondary nature. It is. And people who say it does not, are kidding themselves.
But if we study the scriptures, think on the stories of women (yes women, they are there, weather they are named or not), and realize that God through these individual women, are trying to tell us that women excercise all roles same as men, just differently. Then we can finally achieve equality. If we realize that Priesthood is supposed to make men unified and create a wholistic approach, where every other thing in culture is telling them, they are just in it for themselves and only themselves, it would help our men better understand how to excercise brotherly kindness and love.
If our Sisters understand that we have both a wholistic approach with motherhood, and an individualistic approach with Priestesshood. Then we can understand better that we have power, we have great influence.
It doesn't completely make sense to me yet. But sometimes I am trying to see a positive approach to it.
I even had the thought that the Ordiances of the Gospel, and Giving Blessings are men's Spiritual Gifts. Even if Men have others that are named in their Patriarchal Blessing. They mostly use those Spiritual Gifts, through excercising of their Priesthood.
For Women I sincerely believe that the untethered use of Spiritual Gifts is our Priestesshood. As well as performing some ordinances in the Temple. I feel that there is more. Oh there is a lot more. I am also beginning to sense we have a lot more then what we originally think.
One day, some day we will know fully what we are as women. We will see our Heavenly Mother, and not so much be acceptant of our role as Mothers and Wives, but be astounded at the Variety of Roles she does have, and that they are similar yet different from her husband. That they together make everything, and they together create. That nothing is done without either of them. I think that. I hope that.
And I have to say, I think we will be utmost surprised, at the utter lack of Patriarchy.
And if there is Patriarchy, then there is also Matriarchy. And if there are both of those then there is Egalitarianism in the Kingdom, Queendom, and Kin-dom of God. And these do not automatically cancel one another.
I think the Celestial Kin-dom is going to be more varied then we believe. I think we will all be surprised. I think there is a place for each and every one of us there. And its not going to be exactly the same for any of us.
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Role Flexibility
The Family a Proclamation, probably has thee most controversial statement in it:
By Divine Design Fathers are to Preside, Protect and Provide the Necessities of Life for their families, Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of children.
The next sentence is a long the lines of helping each other in these roles as equal partners.
Except that to really be equal, and help each other in these roles one must view these roles as not black and white and set in stone. Not to let it become instead of Primarily, the world Solely, that Men are solely the heads of the family, and protect and provide the necessities of life, and that women are solely the nurtures of children. And that mothers do nothing else, and that father's do nothing else. Which it has, in many instances as far as what I can tell, been taken to be that way.
I think we need to practice Role Flexibility.
But how do we do that when we don't really see that in the scriptures with a clear example of Heavenly Mother and Heavenly Father and what they do? How do we see how we can do that in our homes when our own Heavenly Parents way of actually living is veiled to us, one by our own inaction of finding out, and two by our own insistence that it has to be only one way, never the other?
It is difficult, I must admit, and I myself am still learning. But if we do not have our Heavenly Parents example, we can sure turn to the scriptures to see where women played protector (and deliverer), provider, and presider, as well as nurturer.
Deborah is the greatest example of the presider role. It doesn't matter weather you think she was a Judge of the whole of Israel, or only a portion. What matters is that she was in that role, and she did have authority to make judgements. It shows loud and clear that women can be Presiders, which automatically gives the ability to be judge. And every woman reading that scripture should understand that. I think it is a miracle that this example of a strong woman in a presiding role made it through, I am certain there where others, but this one made it through. And in that same story, we hear of another woman who put a stake through a man's head. Name escapes me at the moment.
An example of protectors follow a more "traditional" route, Two women who protected all the male children born to the women of Israel while they where in bondage in Egypt. These two women where then protected because they protected the children. Weather you believe it was a Male God or a Female God who primarily protected the woman is besides the point as well. The main point of the story isn't "Do as God would want you to do, and God will protect you" (Though that is a point don't get me wrong). The main point is that women can protect, and often protect the very beings who are too vulnerable to protect themselves, that is children. We can call that nurturing, but in this instance that word is lacking. This was protecting, this was saving these children, and thus saving the whole of Israel.
The Nurturer role for me is a little harder to pinpoint. Which women are prominently displayed nurturing thier children? I can not find an exact example in the Bible. But I can pinpoint an exact example in the Book of Mormon. It was Nephi's wife and her sisters that provided to their young children, born to them in the wilderness, food, while they where strengthened and found their strength to eat raw meat in order to provide food for their children. This story is told by a male glaze as so often the scriptures are, so we do not get a direct account of the experience from the women's point of view. But in my eyes, I see this as a great example of Women nurturing, during a trial that culture never prepared women for. I sometimes believe they came into their own strength. The Lord probably helped, but I often believe that it is women, who are able to find their own strength. Before this they where complaining. Well anybody would be if they found they where not capable of doing what they needed too. They probably cried, and prayed for some way to understand they where strong, and could make it through. We do not know the entire story. We can not really say. Another example of Women nurturing that grabs my thoughts is the Mothers who teach their sons all the words of God, after they loose their fathers to death (after their fathers made an oath not to fight again), (again in the Book of Mormon). This type of nurturing is teaching gospel, not anything physical. It is a nurturing of deeper spiritual significance, which makes women the teachers of truth and light as well as men in their priesthood callings.
The Provider? Who are the women who are providers for their family? Wasn't Ruth one for Naomi, when they came widowed and forlorn back from Moab, into Israel? Yes she got the leftovers from the harvest as other women did, but she eventually became a direct ancestor of David, through who's line that Jesus Christ would come. The best example of how a woman can provide for her family the necessities of life is found in Proverbs 31. Proverbs 31 teaches of the Industrious woman. And what about the New Testament? All those women who are mentioned provided cloaks, and food, and homes for the church after Christ was killed and resurrected.
And what about nurturing men? What about that? Christ was the perfect example of one who nurtured. He often used analogies of a Hen gathering her Chicks under her wing as one who protected. Milk and Honey are provided by the hand of God, sort of like Milk is provided for a baby from its mother. The female is weaved constantly through and through the bible. But often it is ignored. For whatever reason.
Yet it is there. Teaching us of Role Flexibility. Teaching us that Roles aren't set in stone, that every one can do these things. But the one thing that matters, is that we:
Love God, and Love our neighbors as ourselves.
By Divine Design Fathers are to Preside, Protect and Provide the Necessities of Life for their families, Mothers are primarily responsible for the nurture of children.
The next sentence is a long the lines of helping each other in these roles as equal partners.
Except that to really be equal, and help each other in these roles one must view these roles as not black and white and set in stone. Not to let it become instead of Primarily, the world Solely, that Men are solely the heads of the family, and protect and provide the necessities of life, and that women are solely the nurtures of children. And that mothers do nothing else, and that father's do nothing else. Which it has, in many instances as far as what I can tell, been taken to be that way.
I think we need to practice Role Flexibility.
But how do we do that when we don't really see that in the scriptures with a clear example of Heavenly Mother and Heavenly Father and what they do? How do we see how we can do that in our homes when our own Heavenly Parents way of actually living is veiled to us, one by our own inaction of finding out, and two by our own insistence that it has to be only one way, never the other?
It is difficult, I must admit, and I myself am still learning. But if we do not have our Heavenly Parents example, we can sure turn to the scriptures to see where women played protector (and deliverer), provider, and presider, as well as nurturer.
Deborah is the greatest example of the presider role. It doesn't matter weather you think she was a Judge of the whole of Israel, or only a portion. What matters is that she was in that role, and she did have authority to make judgements. It shows loud and clear that women can be Presiders, which automatically gives the ability to be judge. And every woman reading that scripture should understand that. I think it is a miracle that this example of a strong woman in a presiding role made it through, I am certain there where others, but this one made it through. And in that same story, we hear of another woman who put a stake through a man's head. Name escapes me at the moment.
An example of protectors follow a more "traditional" route, Two women who protected all the male children born to the women of Israel while they where in bondage in Egypt. These two women where then protected because they protected the children. Weather you believe it was a Male God or a Female God who primarily protected the woman is besides the point as well. The main point of the story isn't "Do as God would want you to do, and God will protect you" (Though that is a point don't get me wrong). The main point is that women can protect, and often protect the very beings who are too vulnerable to protect themselves, that is children. We can call that nurturing, but in this instance that word is lacking. This was protecting, this was saving these children, and thus saving the whole of Israel.
The Nurturer role for me is a little harder to pinpoint. Which women are prominently displayed nurturing thier children? I can not find an exact example in the Bible. But I can pinpoint an exact example in the Book of Mormon. It was Nephi's wife and her sisters that provided to their young children, born to them in the wilderness, food, while they where strengthened and found their strength to eat raw meat in order to provide food for their children. This story is told by a male glaze as so often the scriptures are, so we do not get a direct account of the experience from the women's point of view. But in my eyes, I see this as a great example of Women nurturing, during a trial that culture never prepared women for. I sometimes believe they came into their own strength. The Lord probably helped, but I often believe that it is women, who are able to find their own strength. Before this they where complaining. Well anybody would be if they found they where not capable of doing what they needed too. They probably cried, and prayed for some way to understand they where strong, and could make it through. We do not know the entire story. We can not really say. Another example of Women nurturing that grabs my thoughts is the Mothers who teach their sons all the words of God, after they loose their fathers to death (after their fathers made an oath not to fight again), (again in the Book of Mormon). This type of nurturing is teaching gospel, not anything physical. It is a nurturing of deeper spiritual significance, which makes women the teachers of truth and light as well as men in their priesthood callings.
The Provider? Who are the women who are providers for their family? Wasn't Ruth one for Naomi, when they came widowed and forlorn back from Moab, into Israel? Yes she got the leftovers from the harvest as other women did, but she eventually became a direct ancestor of David, through who's line that Jesus Christ would come. The best example of how a woman can provide for her family the necessities of life is found in Proverbs 31. Proverbs 31 teaches of the Industrious woman. And what about the New Testament? All those women who are mentioned provided cloaks, and food, and homes for the church after Christ was killed and resurrected.
And what about nurturing men? What about that? Christ was the perfect example of one who nurtured. He often used analogies of a Hen gathering her Chicks under her wing as one who protected. Milk and Honey are provided by the hand of God, sort of like Milk is provided for a baby from its mother. The female is weaved constantly through and through the bible. But often it is ignored. For whatever reason.
Yet it is there. Teaching us of Role Flexibility. Teaching us that Roles aren't set in stone, that every one can do these things. But the one thing that matters, is that we:
Love God, and Love our neighbors as ourselves.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
What will our Mother say?
We often believe that our mother is going to be just so happy we are there, and just so happy that we got home safely, that she is not going to even bat an eye that we don't talk about her much, or that we make up really loving, but still a bit silly explanations of why she isn't spoken of.
I think the one thing she will say to all those who did not seek her, and did not want her name said, and did not make stretches to go against a pretty hardline patriarchy, to get to the real deep person Mother in Heaven is. Is this:
Why did you not seek me when I was calling you too?
It will be one of the questions, but if she only asked one, I believe it would be that.
Christ would say "I do not know you" at Judgement day it seems, but I am almost certain, our mother would know us, still love us, but still ask that question to hold us responsible for our actions.
She like Heavenly Father will be merciful, but will also fufill justice. And we must answer to Them for All our actions, every single one, the good and the bad, and even those areas that are often gray in our minds, and confusing. Every action we take is accounted for.
Sure we have the atonement, but the atonement can not cleanse us, of what we do not think we need to repent for, of what we do not think we even need to look for, and so those actions of not searching for Heavenly Mother, I think fall outside the atonements power, if we do not search for her.
I personally think, the Lord would love to tell us about her. I personally think he is waiting to give us more light and knowledge about her. And that she herself is waiting and willing to show us all she is. She gives us glimpses yes: Nature and Birth, but those are only two glimpses.
So I would ask now, for Heavenly Mother:
Why do you not seek her, when she is calling you too?
I think the one thing she will say to all those who did not seek her, and did not want her name said, and did not make stretches to go against a pretty hardline patriarchy, to get to the real deep person Mother in Heaven is. Is this:
Why did you not seek me when I was calling you too?
It will be one of the questions, but if she only asked one, I believe it would be that.
Christ would say "I do not know you" at Judgement day it seems, but I am almost certain, our mother would know us, still love us, but still ask that question to hold us responsible for our actions.
She like Heavenly Father will be merciful, but will also fufill justice. And we must answer to Them for All our actions, every single one, the good and the bad, and even those areas that are often gray in our minds, and confusing. Every action we take is accounted for.
Sure we have the atonement, but the atonement can not cleanse us, of what we do not think we need to repent for, of what we do not think we even need to look for, and so those actions of not searching for Heavenly Mother, I think fall outside the atonements power, if we do not search for her.
I personally think, the Lord would love to tell us about her. I personally think he is waiting to give us more light and knowledge about her. And that she herself is waiting and willing to show us all she is. She gives us glimpses yes: Nature and Birth, but those are only two glimpses.
So I would ask now, for Heavenly Mother:
Why do you not seek her, when she is calling you too?
Monday, March 12, 2012
My Favorite Feminist Quote and a job
It is time to leave the question of the role of women in society up to Mother Nature a difficult lady to fool. You have only to give women the same opportunities as men, and you will soon find out what is or is not in their nature.
-Clare Boothe Luce - Congresswoman 1943-1947, Ambassador to Italy 1953-1956, Editor, Playwright, social activist, journalist, and diplomat (born Ann Clare Boothe), 1981-1983 Presidential Foreign Intelligence Advisory Board, Presidential Medal of Freedom Recipient 1983
This is my all-time favorite feminist quote, it describes my view about women, and roles, and even men and roles, in the best way. I believe that this is the goal of feminism, to let women decide for themselves what they want to be.
I think it is great if women want to stay home with the kids, but what about daddy? What if he wants to as well? Then he should, but of course his wife would expect him to have a pretty good idea for a business that he could run from the home, and maybe they could start it together? There are a lot of ways that you could be a provider for your family and stay home, and I believe that both mother's and father's are providers, I believe they both are nurturers, and I believe they both desire to protect their children, and their spouse. They just will do things differently based somewhat on nature, mostly on culture. It is both to me, but I think culture in many ways outweighs what is nature.
I also think that its great if women want to work outside the home. Some women are not made to be in the four walls of their home, listening to little children yelling all day long. I was in Nursery, and as much as there were good moments, most days I came home with a headache, and I only was with all those little ones for only two hours. I can't possibly think of what it will be like when I am a mom. These weren't even my kids. Maybe when I am a mom, they will understand that you obey mom's rules. But I feel this really great desire to be out in the world, doing some good. As well as spending quality time with my kids, teaching them about everything. And yes, telling them mom's views, and encouraging them to come to their own views about things.
For now I guess that God the Father and Mother are trying to tell me that the good I can do in the world is to be a substitute teacher. And one day, I may start my political career on a school board some where. Which is my ultimate goal.
Political Career and being a mom, can it be done? Yes, if Men can do it, Women can. I know there is a lot more pressure from society in general for women to be good mothers and that means being at home most if not all the time, and the father's are just the baby sitters, and watching football games (sigh), but I think that in this day and age, we should have a different view.
As that quote says we should leave it up to mother nature what is natural or not. What is natural for the woman, it will show, what is not, she will not do.
I can't say though, that at first, I was very okay with the idea of being a teacher, even a substitute one. But I am okay with it now. It brings in some money for my husband and me, while he is in school. I really think that it is a stepping stone to the political career I want, and its an interesting stepping stone. Not really what I was focused on. But I am grateful for it, and hope to do my best.
I am really grateful, really relieved, and quite frankly think I can cry tears of joy for the second time in my life, rather then tears of sorrow.
Its not going to be easy, but I am hoping it will be worth it. I really think of this as a stepping stone. One I am so grateful for.
Me personally, I think we all want to teach, and we all teach in different ways. The Lord places a great deal of emphasis on teaching in the scriptures. (Which personally is why I think culture matters more, not biology). I even was told in a blessing that I am a good teacher. I think he wants me to teach. And eventually I may teach at the professor level. For now, I am teaching kids, I may just substitute for Grades K-12, to get a well rounded experience. It would offer a lot of variety. Something that I think I can handle.
Hmm, wow, well didn't mean to make it this long. Just have so many thoughts on this.
My favorite Mother in Heaven Quote and my Least favorite
My Favorite one is as follows:
In 1910 Apostle Rudger Clawson pointed out that men as well as women and children crave a mother in heaven to worship and “yearn to adore her.” He said, “It doesn’t take from our worship of the Eternal Father, to adore our Eternal mother, any more than it diminishes the love we bear our earthly fathers, to include our earthly mother in our affection”
--(Rudger Clawson, unsigned article, “Our Mother in Heaven,” Latter-day Saints’ Millennial Star 72 [29 Sept. 1910]: 619-20).
My least favorite one is as follows:
In a meeting for church regional representatives on 5 April 1991, Gordon B. Hinckley, first counselor in the First Presidency, responded to reports that “here and there, prayers have been offered to our Mother in Heaven.” He had searched and found “nowhere in the Standard Works an account where Jesus prayed other than to His Father in Heaven … I have looked in vain for any instance … [of] 'a prayer to our Mother in Heaven.'” He said he “consider[s] it inappropriate for anyone in the Church to pray to our Mother in Heaven” and instructed regional representatives to “counsel priesthood leaders to be on the alert for the use of this expression and to make correction where necessary. Such correction can be handled in a discreet and inoffensive way. But it should be firm and without equivocation.”
I do not think President Hinckely should have stated the last part. I'm sorry, but you should not correct me in how I pray. If we have a mother there, we should include her. People yearn for that as my favorite quote says. Just because the scriptures omit her from the Lords prayer. Just because the Doctrine and Covenants is written in such a male light, does not make it that the Lord didn't pray to her as well as him. There is even some scholarly evidence to suggest he used an Aramaic word (which like most languages is very patriarchal in nature) saying Father-Mother. How can that be untrue?
Honestly, but with all these quotes, the only one that stands as the nearest to what I would like the general population of the church to hear and understand is the one from 1910. That view should have been acted upon then.
My question isn't any more "Why is she silent?" It is: How do we integrate her?
I begin my integrating her in my testimony. I shared a testimony of her once. I can do it again, and again, and again. I will include her with in all the testimony about men and immortal men. She must be included somehow. I am certain a Testimony of her, would not be wrong.The more we testify of her, the more we can get used to hearing her name spoken. It will become second nature.
So no more will I speculate about her and why she is hidden, because I don't think she is hidden, I think she is there in plain sight. We just have not paid much attention to her, due to many different reasons. But for me, I want to include her in the most meaningful way I can. That is through song, and testimony.
I have this little song that I really want to write for children. Well actually its just taking that one line from Oh My Father like this:
Father, Mother may I greet thee,
When my earthly life is over
In they Royal Courts above
Until then please teach me
About eternal life, and love
Very simple, very sweet. Now would that even get through correlation? I hope so. If its meant to be, I will know when it is time. I think it is going to get through correlation, and I also get a feeling, I just have to write the tune and leave it alone until it is time.
In 1910 Apostle Rudger Clawson pointed out that men as well as women and children crave a mother in heaven to worship and “yearn to adore her.” He said, “It doesn’t take from our worship of the Eternal Father, to adore our Eternal mother, any more than it diminishes the love we bear our earthly fathers, to include our earthly mother in our affection”
--(Rudger Clawson, unsigned article, “Our Mother in Heaven,” Latter-day Saints’ Millennial Star 72 [29 Sept. 1910]: 619-20).
My least favorite one is as follows:
In a meeting for church regional representatives on 5 April 1991, Gordon B. Hinckley, first counselor in the First Presidency, responded to reports that “here and there, prayers have been offered to our Mother in Heaven.” He had searched and found “nowhere in the Standard Works an account where Jesus prayed other than to His Father in Heaven … I have looked in vain for any instance … [of] 'a prayer to our Mother in Heaven.'” He said he “consider[s] it inappropriate for anyone in the Church to pray to our Mother in Heaven” and instructed regional representatives to “counsel priesthood leaders to be on the alert for the use of this expression and to make correction where necessary. Such correction can be handled in a discreet and inoffensive way. But it should be firm and without equivocation.”
I do not think President Hinckely should have stated the last part. I'm sorry, but you should not correct me in how I pray. If we have a mother there, we should include her. People yearn for that as my favorite quote says. Just because the scriptures omit her from the Lords prayer. Just because the Doctrine and Covenants is written in such a male light, does not make it that the Lord didn't pray to her as well as him. There is even some scholarly evidence to suggest he used an Aramaic word (which like most languages is very patriarchal in nature) saying Father-Mother. How can that be untrue?
Honestly, but with all these quotes, the only one that stands as the nearest to what I would like the general population of the church to hear and understand is the one from 1910. That view should have been acted upon then.
My question isn't any more "Why is she silent?" It is: How do we integrate her?
I begin my integrating her in my testimony. I shared a testimony of her once. I can do it again, and again, and again. I will include her with in all the testimony about men and immortal men. She must be included somehow. I am certain a Testimony of her, would not be wrong.The more we testify of her, the more we can get used to hearing her name spoken. It will become second nature.
So no more will I speculate about her and why she is hidden, because I don't think she is hidden, I think she is there in plain sight. We just have not paid much attention to her, due to many different reasons. But for me, I want to include her in the most meaningful way I can. That is through song, and testimony.
I have this little song that I really want to write for children. Well actually its just taking that one line from Oh My Father like this:
Father, Mother may I greet thee,
When my earthly life is over
In they Royal Courts above
Until then please teach me
About eternal life, and love
Very simple, very sweet. Now would that even get through correlation? I hope so. If its meant to be, I will know when it is time. I think it is going to get through correlation, and I also get a feeling, I just have to write the tune and leave it alone until it is time.
Visiting Teaching
The Lord, and my Heavenly Parents are reminding me of something. That there are nice people in the church, and they honestly do their best to try to understand things.
Had a honest chat with my visiting teachers on Heavenly Mother. I can't keep it in. It hurts to much to do that anymore. I can't just keep it on the internet either. It must come out.
I do certainly say I love my visiting teachers. We are all at different points in our lives. Next time around I want to get to know them. I just wish I could untie my tounge (spelling?). I feel a little better talking to my visiting teachers about it. It relieved a lot of stress.
Now I'm not sorry for the rant, I have a feeling I don't have to be. We all have to just accept anger is apart of life. I mean God gets angry, I think its okay if I get angry, so long as it doesn't have a bad effect on me. I can't always say it doesn't.
The lesson was on Female identity, and coming to understand it. I think it would be so much easier if we just knew more about Heavenly Mother. One of my visiting teachers was talking about how there was lots of lost scriptures, and she feels robbed because there could be much in there about Heavenly Mother. She also brought up a good point that the scriptures we do have went through lots of translations so there could have been things in there that have been changed from a very feminine perspective to a more masculine one.
It just relieves me to a point, that they know. And I'm not alone. They may see it differently then I, being the passionate person I am about bringing heavenly mother into the light, but they do understand where I am.
I should do my visiting teaching, and hopefully the women I visit, can be expressive about their own doubts and trials.
I'm just glad, I was honest, saying I've been having a long trial of faith. I really don't think its going to end any time soon, but I'm tired of wrestling with God, for my answers. I know that Heavenly Father can mention things about Heavenly Mother to me. I asked him to, but now I just want to hear it from her.
Had a honest chat with my visiting teachers on Heavenly Mother. I can't keep it in. It hurts to much to do that anymore. I can't just keep it on the internet either. It must come out.
I do certainly say I love my visiting teachers. We are all at different points in our lives. Next time around I want to get to know them. I just wish I could untie my tounge (spelling?). I feel a little better talking to my visiting teachers about it. It relieved a lot of stress.
Now I'm not sorry for the rant, I have a feeling I don't have to be. We all have to just accept anger is apart of life. I mean God gets angry, I think its okay if I get angry, so long as it doesn't have a bad effect on me. I can't always say it doesn't.
The lesson was on Female identity, and coming to understand it. I think it would be so much easier if we just knew more about Heavenly Mother. One of my visiting teachers was talking about how there was lots of lost scriptures, and she feels robbed because there could be much in there about Heavenly Mother. She also brought up a good point that the scriptures we do have went through lots of translations so there could have been things in there that have been changed from a very feminine perspective to a more masculine one.
It just relieves me to a point, that they know. And I'm not alone. They may see it differently then I, being the passionate person I am about bringing heavenly mother into the light, but they do understand where I am.
I should do my visiting teaching, and hopefully the women I visit, can be expressive about their own doubts and trials.
I'm just glad, I was honest, saying I've been having a long trial of faith. I really don't think its going to end any time soon, but I'm tired of wrestling with God, for my answers. I know that Heavenly Father can mention things about Heavenly Mother to me. I asked him to, but now I just want to hear it from her.
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Again the project
This project is on hold, but this blog has become so much more to me, then just a project. It has become my sacred ground. It has become the place I go to let off steam, to the silent virtual world.
It is the place, I hope some people like. If you don't, well I can't say I'm not sad about that, but what can I do? Chain you to your computer chair and make you read my blog??? Nah, not very possible.
I don't know what to make of this project sometimes. I think maybe its just a really nice long name for my journey. Well I think I will get the pink moccasins this week. I think I like that idea.
Oh photo, oops totally forgot. Um, it will probably take me a while to upload the photos.
God grant me comfort, and peace, to get through all the stuff that is supposed to teach me patience, kindness, and sisterly love. (how could i have brotherly love? I am not a brother, but a sister in the family of God).
It is the place, I hope some people like. If you don't, well I can't say I'm not sad about that, but what can I do? Chain you to your computer chair and make you read my blog??? Nah, not very possible.
I don't know what to make of this project sometimes. I think maybe its just a really nice long name for my journey. Well I think I will get the pink moccasins this week. I think I like that idea.
Oh photo, oops totally forgot. Um, it will probably take me a while to upload the photos.
God grant me comfort, and peace, to get through all the stuff that is supposed to teach me patience, kindness, and sisterly love. (how could i have brotherly love? I am not a brother, but a sister in the family of God).
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